Monday, May 17, 2010

The Seagull, the Mountain, and the Resort

I came across Seagull Mountain Resort about eighteen years ago, back when the Bukidnon-Davao Road, famously known as BUDA, was still as rough as any rocky road is. Travel time from Davao to Cagayan de Oro City used to take nine hours, excluding traffic and the occasional engine trouble or the usual flat tire among vehicles, especially the buses. So for every traveler passing this route with a non air-conditioned vehicle would experience biting the dust literally. The climate, however, is amazingly cool, with picture perfect views of the terrain. From a distance, it was almost like the hills were trimmed on the edges for roads to appear because one can actually see the buses coming down from the other side, making its way through the snaky curves, appearing and disappearing behind the trees.


Located just in the boundary between Davao and Bukidnon is the Seagull Mountain Resort. Owned by the prominent Durezas of Davao, it is supposed to be a perfect getaway from the hassles in the city. I’ve heard about it during the early 90’s, when my friends and I, fresh graduates from high school, were on the height of exploring a number of waterfalls in Epol, which was just a couple of kilometers away from the Resort. The people living in the area told us that the Durezas owned a chunk of land in that hill, which, later as I realized based on what my eyes can measure, turned out to be the whole hilltop.

Anyway, the first time I really got in the resort was in 2003, eleven years after the waterfalls-cave-trekking adventure I had with my high school classmates. I was on a job assignment that needed constant monitoring in Bukidnon and so I travelled around the area almost every month. The resort was not an intended stop-over for me but our driver, who was also the owner of our rented van, decided to make a stop mostly out of curiosity. Since it was the last day of our project, there was no reason for me to not take this leisure. We only got as far as the restaurant where we ordered coffee, stayed and enjoyed the cool climate and then took off. Nothing really made an impact on me except for the restaurant’s ambiance which almost gave me a deliciously eerie feeling. Its wooden panels, door chimes, the waiter’s loud footsteps echoing across the floor, the quiet mood, the antique ornaments, were somehow creepy in a good sense. It seemed like a perfect setting for urban legends which led us to retell horror stories in broad daylight.

Seven years later after spending an hour of imaginings at Seagull, I finally went back, this time with a plan to stay overnight. I recently spent the weekend there accompanied by my officemate and friend, Faith. We were originally planning to head for Camiguin but our budget was just up to the boundaries of Davao City so the resort was most perfect for us.

We took the non air-conditioned bus bound for Cagayan de Oro via BUDA, leaving at about ten o’clock in the morning. The bus had a stop too many, including in a durian stand at the roadside just outside Calinan, which the passengers enjoyed. I wasn’t jumping up and down about it but neither was I complaining since we were really not in a hurry to get to Seagull. First of all, there were only two of us, as the rest of the group backed out at the last minute, and second, we were kind of wondering what else are in stored for us after the sight-seeing is done. I was very sure we would be able to see everything of it in just one day and so an overnight stay would have been unnecessary. But then again, my whole point of going there was to get away from the usual activities and try to bring back the adventure in my heart, because somewhere along the way it just got lost in the midst of adulthood.

The day before we made the trip, someone asked me what was so interesting at Seagull that made me convince everyone to go there and I felt the oddity of the question. Nothing wrong about it but if I had answered the truth, which was as simple as just for the heck of it he wouldn’t have understood. So I just replied, “Catching the fog.” It dawned on me that our destination that day was not as important as getting on the bus and riding on it.

We reached the place an hour past noon. Faith and I were grinning, excited of what the rest of the day may bring. A cold breeze greeted us which made us laugh even more that I could’ve bet we looked like kids on a field trip for the first time. I was amazed to see that there were actually people inside, the place looked busy and kids were running about. Unlike before, the parking lot was full.
The guard on duty walked towards us and explained just about everything that we were about to ask and it made me wonder if he could read minds or just plain talented. We didn’t have to read the tariffs written in the signboard because he had said it all. An information officer and a security guard rolled into one. But there was indeed an information counter just right beside the restaurant. Ah, the restaurant…

It basically looked the same, only this time, more antique crafts were added and tables inside were fashioned in such a way that big, Japanese look-alike picnic umbrellas were attached to it, which was really nice, but somehow left me wondering why it’s necessary to design it that way when it was definitely an indoor setting. We concluded later that there probably was a leak on the roof so the picnic umbrella comes in handy. On the other corner was a black leather couch, probably set there as a reminder that we’re in a modern world, however it becomes a contrast to the umbrella, and the environment itself. The curtains even had a variety of colors with very common prints. The eerie feeling that I had when I first got here years ago was no longer felt, but I would rather have that feeling again than this sense of loss between the disparity of the furniture and the environment. It seemed that there was no connection to it, no consistency to its very location, even the background music made me feel like I was in a Hollywood movie. The indigenous essence of being in such a place was completely unfelt. Then again, the resort was probably established just for the sake of having a place to stop in the middle of the road. I just hoped that there could be more to it rather than just remain a fine place.

Then there’s the swimming pool. We passed by the pool just to check it out and we found it nice and simple. Neither it is too big nor too small. But every swimming pool looks the same so there’s really nothing much to say except for the utterly freezing water.

We found a trail that led down to the waterfalls but considering the little time we had, we decided to take the improvised shuttle-truck-jeep instead.
The cascade was a pretty sight and hearing the gushing sound of water reminded me of how I love the mountains and its treasures within. There were swimming pools just beneath the waterfall, one for adults and one for kids. There was a bunch of different families when we arrived there and I can say it was a good place for strengthening ties and most of all, relaxing. The pools looked inviting and it would be challenging to jump into it but we decided not to because then it had begun to drizzle. Besides, swimming was really not included in our plan.
On the other hand, back in the resort, cottages and campsites offered were good enough although very modern, but with affordable and reasonable rates depending on the number of capacity. Grilling areas were especially constructed in between houses for those who wanted to cook their own meals, as appliances brought are charged to a certain fee. Separate comfort rooms are provided for those lodging in campsites, which are shared commonly among other campers. Water, however, could be a problem due to the occasional brown outs that stopped the flow, and so you should make sure to fill the bucket before using the bathroom otherwise you’d get stuck inside with no water and electricity, and worse, with soap in your eyes.

After settling in our chosen campsite, we hiked towards a coffee shop just meters away from the resort. It was indeed a perfect place to linger for travelers and a gasoline station sits just beside it. I was anxious to have my usual afternoon coffee break most especially in that place where the temperature was coolest and I could not hide my excitement to see what sort of flavors were there for me to choose from. So I was truly disappointed when the café staff informed me that coffee could not be served because, “Ma’am, di man gud ka-saka ang tubig diri kung brown out… di ka-kaya ang generator…”

“Oh… and how long will this brown out take?”

“It usually takes three to five hours, so the power should be back tonight at six.”

Imagine me standing there with a frozen smile across my face, hands on hips, eyes staring at the list of coffee flavors. There was nothing I could do but sigh. And so it kept me thinking, a roadside coffee shop such as this truly is a blessing to travelers but if without the capacity to serve coffee in the middle of a very cold afternoon, then what’s the point?

So with Faith laughing at me, we ordered sandwiches and softdrinks instead.
I was already accepting the fact that the cause of this bad timing was the scarcity of electric power in Mindanao, and the whole nation, so I might as well shrug it off. So when an Isuzu Sportivo stopped in front of the café with six passengers climbing out, I was almost smiling just thinking about what their reactions would be when they find out that coffee could not be served. True enough, they were dismayed. However, what happened to them was not as simple as I had thought when one good looking lady asked where the restrooms were located. Apparently, all the restrooms were locked since, according to the staff, there was not enough water to run through the toilets because of --- newsflash --- the brown out. I watched the lady’s facial expression turn sour as all of them looked at one another and I immediately realized her urgency to use the restroom. Suddenly I felt sorry for her. I knew then that their purpose of dropping by was not the coffee and by the looks of that lady, I could almost feel the turmoil in her stomach. The staff, also realizing the situation, referred her to the restrooms at the resort and the lady and her companions instantly went out to that direction. I could only hope that there’s enough water there.

I don’t know if the management should be concerned about these situations but, isn’t it worth the consideration? It might have been if service was included in their plans but from what we had seen and encountered, there were no initiatives taken thus a not-so-good perspective for us, only providing frustrations and a little bit of a sad story. A coffee-less coffee shop with locked restrooms. It probably was not the usual but then… was it all just bad timing?

At dinnertime we positioned ourselves back in the restaurant and we chose the table with the big picnic umbrella. We were already forewarned about their food and how the cost was far greater than its actual taste so we opted for the value meals offered where I had the pork barbecue and a grilled chicken for Faith. We figured that barbecues are barbecues wherever you are so it was the safest choice.
Or so we thought.

I have always loved food so I am not going to write anything that might cause any disrespect. But I would not, however, recommend to anyone their value meals.
But to perk things up the next day, the corned beef with egg served at breakfast was great. With fried dilis as side dish and a choice of instant coffee or hot native chocolate, Faith and I had our first delicious meal since our arrival at the resort. And so, to be sure of paying for something that truly values the cost, as well as a full stomach, we both decided to order the same menu for lunch. And we did take the same breakfast meal during lunch time at the coffee shop which was also serving the same menu as that of the restaurant. Electricity was up and running, thank goodness. After eating, we packed our things and headed for home.

It took an hour of waiting before a bus passed by and we were lucky enough to have hailed it. Since it was from Cagayan de Oro, and had picked up passengers from all stations along the way, all seats were taken and some people were already standing in the aisle. We had to push our way towards the end, stood and held on whatever our hands can reach to defy the swerves. Upon reaching Calinan District, we decided to get off the bus and just take the rest of the ride home by commuter van where we could be properly seated and be more comfortable because honestly, I was already feeling nauseous. We arrived in Davao at three in the afternoon.

It was not much of a great adventure but we did have fun, somehow. It was not after all, the destination that mattered, but the sense of breaking the barriers of uncertainty and taking a leap to overcome whatever fear that has been holding us back to gain a little bit of freedom. It was a heck of a bus ride.

The Seagull Mountain Resort was not at all super impressive but nevertheless, I would still go back there and if the budget allows, bring my family with me. The resort may have its own flaws but it possesses some good things that make it work out like for instance, nature itself.

And while grasping the beauty of nature and all, maybe then I could find the connection between the seagull and the mountain.

Monday, January 11, 2010

a love letter

to the one who knows...

i want to hold your hand but just can’t.
i want to hold you and feel your arms around me.
i long to kiss you anytime i want,
and touch your face to show my affection;
watch the sunrise and sunset, probably walk in the rain
as trees grow old with me and you.
to lean on your shoulder and listen to your heartbeat,
to love you and let you love me back.
i will if i can, and i would even look straight into your eyes but then again,
all of these are just a mere bubble
in a world made of clay;
and the only thing i must do is just to forget you,
because everything is just a game.
even if i would fight i would still lose;
there’s nothing to gain but pain.

what i want in a man

i want a man strong enough for me to
lean on but superman’s dead;
i want a man who understands poetry
but shakespeare’s dead;
i want a man who understands the
language of music but beethoven’s dead;
i want a man who can sing like a freak
and dance like a jerk, and whispers my
name most passionately but shrek is an ogre;
i want a man who washes his dirty
clothes but mr. clean is a detergent bar;
i want a MAN not like peter pan who
never grew up;
i want a man who can discuss marriage
without qualms but only a priest can do
this;
the truth is, there is really no ideal
man fit for perfection because men are
sometimes stupid, and they are all
alike. but i like them all.

gloom

in a world of fantasy
comes a reality
where fairies become ghosts
and sheep turn to goats;
time drags day into night
moon drops long lost kites;
clocks tick counterwise
and gentlemen turn to mice;
the lions’s roar becomes a mew
teardrops falling into dew;
the stars twinkle with rust
as leaves and flowers turn to dust;
what a gloomy world, saddest as blue
without a heart, without you.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

november rain

someone told me that happiness is a choice. yeah, i know. still, i allowed myself to get soaked in the rain. sometimes you just have to marinate on your pain until you get saturated, enough for you to unfeel it. and finally when you have queezed yourself out of it, you just shrug your shoulders and say, "i'm okay now." at some point in time when this pain starts to creep up on you again, it would be easy to just ignore it. because you're done with that aching. until then, you can choose to be happy. for one can never feel happiness without pain.

so welcome your pain. your brokenness. your hurt. become nothing. when you have become numb of everything, you will learn to smile. and laugh on it.

happiness, you see, is not an effort.

so here comes another pain. one that you don't recognize. you can't just say, "i choose to be happy". say it, and that pain will never leave you. allow the pain to pierce through your heart, and it will soon fade away. of course it won't be easy. but it won't be that difficult either. for how can you let go of that pain if you won't even have a hold of it?

so go ahead. cry. wail. shout. grieve. after all, it's just the november rain.

hmmm... i should listen to myself sometimes.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

into the desert

For years there has never been a single day when i hoped i had a different job. I tell myself almost everyday that i'd just quit and look for a better one but i never had the guts to really do it. Yes, i fear what lies ahead but it's not the losing that matters most. It's saying, "this is it", that really scares me. The challenge of an uncertainty. Starting from scratch. Back to zero. But when i come to ponder on it, i realize that i have nothing to lose since i never really had anything to hold on to. And now, as i listened to my boss's announcement that a lot of us might lose our jobs next year, gave me a pang of pain that leaves me surprised and incredibly arid. How can this be? This is supposed to be an opportuned moment. My breakthrough of exploring the unknown. But why do i hurt? Why do my voice falter?

I'm living in a fantasy. The fantasy of just quitting my job and find a much better one. Way better. Yet when this fantasy is finally becoming a reality, my knees shake. Leaves me scared.

Reality truly bites.

Saturday, February 26, 2005

the story in my mind

i walk into a bar, meet my friends, exchange smiles and look as though we're the only beings there. he sees me, but i don't. not yet. he keeps on looking, hoping to catch my gaze. the waiter comes and i order a juice. then, i look around and sees him. and then... nothing. it's either i look away and pretend not to see him or, smile at him, looking genuinely surprised. which is better?

huh?! what the...?!

this is the part of me where i could just be corny and settle for soapy romance. and the funny thing is, none of these ever happens to me. at least not the way i play it on my mind. the reality is that, he never looks at my way. he is the fish that got away. i let him get away three years ago. and now the squares in my net are way too big to catch him. or anybody. they just slip through it no matter how much i try to ensnare them. our conversations begin with a "hi" and it stops there. it does not even pass for a conversation since nothing else has been said.

what's the best word to describe this? what does "pathetic" mean anyway?

if i could just put some label in my life then this would be the one that says "the next asian telenovela" in neon print. of course it would be a smash hit because i have the gift of weaving stories. my english teacher in junior high used to comment on my paper that i have "a way with words". now, however, it leaves me wondering which way these words are going. if i were to write a fairy tale it would be not such of a wonder if i entitle it, "After Happily Ever". because in the recent realities that i have encountered nothing ends happily ever after. that's the trouble with being stuck in fairy tales. you fall flat on the face after happily ever, if you know what i mean. the only tale that i believe has a bit of reality on it was that of Hans Christian Andersen's "Little Mermaid", where the little mermaid, in the end, slits her throat and jumps into the ocean. and died. now this was the original version. there was no marriage, no kissing, no pishposh, no dreamlike ending. she was brokenhearted, boy oh boy. being broken alone, is real.

however don't get the impression that i will do the same. niknak. i value my life, no matter how scarred i am. i break into pieces most of the time, but somehow, i still have the strength to bend over and put myself together no matter how slow i get up, and see how fast nimbus clouds gather to rain in me once and again. after all, i have my raincoat, and my superglue.

scarred people are beautiful.

the story in my mind. it changes and it never ends. but he is always there.

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

nothingness

i read a couple of stuff here today and boy oh boy they're good. i like the way some people visualize life, more or less defining it through the things that surround us. right now i just can't define it myself. i feel so nothing today...not happy...not sad. one of my friends call it, the "hollow spot".

oh well. words elude me at this moment just when i needed it the most. it's starting to rain outside and ironically, it has been raining in me for some time now and nobody seems nice enough to open up an umbrella.

maybe i should just use a raincoat then.

Sunday, November 28, 2004

thirty1

today's my last day of being thirty. i woke up at 9am, ate a piece of muffin, drank a glass of milk, turned on the tv. never even bothered to wash my face. saturday's a wash day in the house so mom's kind of busy collecting the curtains, turning pillows over, yelling here and there as moms usually do. my niece running around singing "teeth teeth teeth... teeth teeth teeth...!" a song she got from elmo. it's supposed to be a song. she smiled at me and i smiled back. i just love the way she makes me smile. even though i don't want to.

i had lunch at shakey's pizza and bought a copy of roald dahl's matilda from a bookshop nearby. i had the urge to buy a ticket for bukidnon or cagayan de oro, just to get away for the afternoon... or for the day... though i have no idea what or who i'm running away from. or should i just buy my dream celfone...? hmmm... that SE T610 sure looks great and i actually can afford it this time... whew. nah. i gotta pay the bills next week, i said to myself. then again, it's my birthday tomorrow i must buy something for myself. well... i bought matilda... yeah.